Aalaa Najuib
My name is Aalaa Najuib, I’m 26 years old turning 27 in a couple of months, I am a mass communication graduate but I work as an assistant brand manager in one of the leading dairy companies FMCG, only sometimes I enjoy it, only sometimes..
I am a wonderer, and I was wondering today “What if my genie agreed to bring me back all that I lost since I was very young?” and since I lost loads of valuable stuff I am indeed happy to have such a hope and I am actually living on it! The only thing that I never lost but I still want my genie to bring it back to me is MYSELF, so I started to write as a way to convince him to bring me back myself!
I don’t really produce lots of writing, so don’t expect a lot out of me, but if you really enjoy the little things and you believe in them keep an eye on me :-) I mean my writings
In my other life... In fact; I never thought about this before, or maybe I did but I don’t remember one single thought about it!! So I never had another me in my mind; that’s a limited creativity I know! But let’s agree that this is a changing matter that totally depends on our present mood and surrounding atmosphere so I’ll be cheating on you if I just mentioned anything now, the reality is that:
Now I am nothing!
This is to be changed soon :)
The Scent of Life
With her crimped long black hair dispersed on a fluffy pinkish cushion .. filled with innocence & hooligan beauty .. looking like a wool ball in a sunny winter day .. she rested in peace .. when the light wind snook away to her cubical wooden sleeping box .. faintly disturbing the delightfully sketched skylight on her face trying to fully awaken her .. to whiff the heavenly magical breeze of MaMa’s baking .. an aura that always hugged the child in her .. it shed her little dream of mornings always baked with unconditioned love .. letting her longing for more of MaMa’s bread .. MaMa’s coffee .. & MaMa’s touch ..
ME ,Myself & I
Am not the shapeless creature anymore ..
Am not the sound of everyone but me.. Am not them anymore ..
Am not the captivated inside herself ill-defined little maggot ..
I am out of the cocoon I always suppressed my wings within..
I used to gravel life .. now I am flying..
I used to be the talking dumb .. now I am recording my history
I felt chaotic .. but now I am smooth like Nutella on the morning spoon ..
I sounded like a disharmonizing violin in life’s orchestra .. now I am becoming the roaring water
..it runs hard and soft .. it pushes forward to pull back to the surface all of the river’s hidden
diamonds ..
I am becoming a spectacular flying butterfly ..
I am here to disperse happiness .. coloring reality in rainbows .. creating smiley faces on life’s
madness..
what am I becoming? I am becoming… more of me .. the real me
I am becoming the dancing
monstrous butterfly ..
Innergized
In a hurry.. running after my thoughts not to dump me .. fast paced .. I took off the diamond strussed time machine to spell all today’s, yesterday’s and wishfully tomorrows' love moments ..
I am never that passionate but with inspiration .. yah that’s my real Superman .. he loves me like know one can .. but he barely comes and visits though!
Pulling my legs heavily.. jumping the stairs .. in wide steps .. thinking .. “Uft! Another moment of HAVE TO DO obligatory social crap stuff”.. The moments cheerfully opened their doors .. surprised me smiling in my face.. with crystal clear well organized shiny teeth line .. they smiled letting everything else in me to smile .. and here comes the joyous moments .. when a dying man .. laying in bed .. doing nothing but waiting for the black unknown to take him away.. smiled cheerfully and lovingly saying “Ahlan wa Sahlan Ahlan wa Sahlan” .. when he magically – as per his wife – changed his sleeping position to the sitting position.. as if life suddenly jumped into his face .. his legs .. his arms .. his heart .. into his soul! At that moment I felt I was the beam girl who would spread happiness like Santa spreads his Christmas gifts on New Year's eve!
I filled them with candies .. they filled me with joyous happiness.. and wisdom!
The wisdom that takes your heart and mind away to look high from heaven’s windows to the reality of life …. The reality behind things! And REALize.. that what you have is way so much more than what you’ve lost or even what you don’t have ..
I have a loving compassionate father
I have a yelling mother with a soft candy white heart
I have love surrounding me
And I have this moment! That transforms my being ..
I loved their moments .. they are rare and special ..
Making someone happy isn’t an easy job in every sense .. but with extreme ease .. they were more than happy! And that was all about it .. little GOOD things really make a difference .. big life joys are all originally made by very small ones .. be it a word .. an action .. or a candy bundle!
I’ll never uft about them again..
I’ll always love to go and spread the beams .. I’ll always go and visit ..
I’ll always appreciate the beings of my parents .. I’ll always appreciate the LOVE inhabited in ME
& I’ll always remember .. it’s all about small things ..
ME-30th Nov 2010-very inspired- very alive-very innergized ..
The Disturbing Happiness
In an attempt to crush herself with the rocky life .. slaughtering the lying beauty of the realm.. fading herself out of the worldly existence ..unwanting to live the unsmiley days .. She met his divine face in the middle of the ugly reality .. spelling out his life vows.. unchaining/untying the deep, urging bridled love words .. for him she was the world that he always wanted to live in.. to live for .. to live with .. and to live around.. as if she grew up only for him.. as if she unbroke herself into pieces just to be with him .. he just opened up his soul at the right time healing her spirit from life wounds and tiredness; tiredness that undrove her even little pieces of happiness.
With him .. and only with him .. she unacts like another her .. she was the stringed pearled lavaliere .. it’s a jewel when it’s all together .. and it’s still a worthless jewel when it's unstringed.
There is where she gushed out all of her unspoken magnificence .. being more of herself.. more of their selves .. sipping more of life joys.. with unaging beat full hearts.. coloring the picture of the world in their eyes .. the eyes of all surroundings.. planning ahead for a wonderland.. brushing up the unbordered dream
Her simplicity made up her complexity .. this is how he explained her perfectly in words..
This is how he loved her in actions.. this is how he taught her LIFE!
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